Chapter50 Thane IamsittinghereinAylasroommullingoverthefolderofinformationinfrontofme.KianCrestford.26yearsold.MemberoftheMidnightPack.OwnerofLastCallBarandGrilleintownandapparentlyAylasfatedmate.CyrusdughimupratherquicklyusingCCTV.Young,mediocremanwitharumoredgamblingproblem.Sure,heisdecentlookingandhealthy,buthereallyhasnothingtoaddtolittlewolf.Ifindmyselfsurprisedthatthefateswouldpairhierwithsotneaverageshifterwhensheseemssomuchbigger,somuchmore.Icantpicturelittlewolfasaverage,oranythingbelow
highlevelofexcellenceforthatmatter.Shehassuchavibrantlifeinsideofherthatneedstoberestored,andIcantpicturethatHealingtakingplaceinabar.Willshewanttoworkthere?Willsheputhersafetyatriskminglingwithothershifters.Shiftersthatcouldstareatherallnightandmakeadvancementstowardsherfueledbyliquidcourage.TheideaofotheralphasanywherenearlittlewolfhasmegrowlingandRonansnarling.
However,asIstareatlittlewolf,Ihavetoremindmyselfthatshecantbemine.IfKianprovestobeherfatedmate, allclosenessbetweenusneedstobecutoff.Icouldntcontinuetohelpherandhavethesestrongoffeelingstowardsher.Imaynotbeabletocontrolmyselfandthatwouldntbefairtoherorhermate.Whatafrickenmess1havemade.
AlphaThane,IhavethemedicationtoarouseAylaandgetheroutofhersedation.IsitokayifI proceed?YesEric,itsbeentwodays.Letswakeherupandseeifanythinghaschanged.EricproceedstoinjectmedicationintoAylasIVsite.Littlewolfimmediatelystartstorollhereyesbackandforthunderherlidsandcanhearfaint, deepgroansas shetriestoarouseherself.Littlewolf,itisThaneandEric.Youareintheclinic,andwewantyoutowakeupforus.Shemakesacutefrownslashpoutfaceandstartstomoveherarmsandlegsaroundabit.Thatsitlittlewolf, wakeup.Youcan doit.
IneedyoutoopenyoureyesAyla.afewmoregroansandthosebeautifultealeyesare blinkingheavilyatme.

Hello,littlewolf.Iamgladthatyoucouldcomebacktous.Doyoufeelokay?Iaskherwhilereachingoutandholdinghertinyhandinmine.DamnImissedthatlittlehand.Shelooksupatmewithamixtureofconfusionandlonging.Likeshecantbelievesheisseeingme.Damnit.Ishouldnthavestayedawayfromher,butIalsoneededand continuetoneedto.Shecantbemine.Icantbehers.Shenodsherheadyes.andIhelp hersitupandtakeadrinkofwater.Iamgoingtofill youinonwhathappenedandthenwecantalkwithapadofpaperafterwards.Youwerehavingapanicattackandhallucinatingandhurt
ing yourself.EricandIdecidedtosedateyouandbringyoutotheclinic.Whilehereattheclinicwetossedaroundtheoriesaboutreconnectingtoyourwolfamongotherthings.Wedecidedtosedateyoudeeplyinhopesyouwouldfindyourwolfandreconnect.Ithasbeentwodayssincewesedatedyou.Didyoumakecontactwithyourwolf?Shestudiesmehesitantlyforaseveralsecondsbeforenoddingherheadyes.DidyoureconnectwithyourwolfAyla?Iaskhopeful, butshenodsherheadno.Wereyouabletohaveaconversationwithher? shenodsherheadyes.Well,thatisastartIsuppose.Iwashoping
youwouldconnectwithyourwolfbecauseIneedherhelp.Withthatshestaresatmewithherbrowsfurrowed,confusionwrittenonherfeatures.TherehasbeenashiftercomeforthfromthetownthatclaimshesmelledhisfatedmatessmellinthehairsalonItookyouto,andthatthesmellthattriggereditwaslavender.Which,tomyknowledge,youaretheonlyshifteraroundherwiththatuniquesmellandyoudidgetyourhaircuttherepriortohim.
Shesitsupmoreanddrawsherkneestoherchest.Damnit,shelooksscaredandconfused.NotwhatIwantedwhenshejustwokeup.IknowthisisalottotakeinAyla.
Especiallywithus,butIhavetotalktoyouaboutit.Seehowyoufeelaboutmeetinghim.Iamconcernedthatyoumaynotbeabletorecognizethefatedmatebondwithoutyourwolf.However, Ericfeelsthatcontactwithyourfatedmatecouldbringoutyour wolfandherecommendsyoumeetthispotentialmateofyoursasap.Thechoiceisyours.
I havehisinformation.Wetrackedhimdown.Regardlessofwhat youdecide,wealsoneedtotalkaboutus.

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Shelooksatmesadly,takesadeepbreathandnodsinagreementwhilefrowning.Letsgetyoudressedandget youback toyourrooms.Wecantalkthen,andIcanhavesomefooddelivered.IamgoingtoletEric knowwhileIstepout.Shenodsinagreement,andIstepoutoftheroom.Ihadmynoseamillimeterabovehersweetcunt,butIleavetheroomforhertogetdressed? Idontunderstandmyactions,butIcanget lostinthememoryofmyfacebetweenherlegswhileshe cameallovermyhand.Eric, canyousendsomeoneintohelpherdressandthenIwilltakeherbacktoherrooms.Yesalpha.
30minuteslaterwe aredrivingbacktothepackhouse.Theelevatorprovidedanawkwardsilenceandsodidthewalktoherrooms.Idontevenknowwheretostartwiththisconversation.Mymindandmyheartarewarringwithinthemselves,andIamleftwithconfusiontosiftthrough.Aylasitsonhercouch,andIsitbesideher.Clearingmythroat,Idecidetobreaktheicefirst.Ayla, IwantyoutoknowthatI pulledawayfromyou.IrealizeI diditandImadethatdecisionformanyreasons,butyoudeservedtoknowaboutitandmythoughtprocess behindit,especiallyafterthenightwehad,andIapol
ogizefornottalkingtoyou.Thisisadifficultconversationforme.
IdecidedmanyyearsagothatIwouldwaitformyfatedmate.Familyisimportanttome,IhavenoneleftAyla.Iwanttogivemyfullselftomyfatedmateandmakemyselfanewfamily.OnethatIlovewitheverythingandprotectwithallofme.IdecidedthatIwouldnthaverelationships,thatIwouldntgiveanypieceofmyhearttoanyone.Forthefirsttime,thathasbeendifficultformetodo.Toremember.Ifindmyselflongingforyouandwantingtogiveyouapieceofmethatnobody Chapter 50 has , butI cant.
It wouldnt be fair to you if we continued with the traction between us and then I findmy mate and haveto leave you .
Not after what you have seen through.

Maybe me pulling back was a blessing.
Now, you havea potential fatedmate .
That may have not happened if I hadnt pulled back.
Idont know.
I do know that I dont want to pull back.
I am jealous and I want you to