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[Jasmine's POV] He's late thirties, maybe. The kind of face that wears its years comfortably-lines around his eyes that speak to genuine laughter, not stress. Approachable smile that reaches those eyes, something rare in a room full of industry professionals wearing practiced charm. But it's the way he looks at me that makes my breath catch. Not assessing or calculating. Just seeing. Actually seeing. "You looked like you were planning an escape." His voice is warm, carries humor without mockery. "I'm Elijah Hart. Songwriter, producer, fellow introvert at these things." He extends his hand.

I take it, and the contact registers in ways it shouldn't. Warm. Confident without aggression. His grip is firm but not dominating, his palm slightly rough-someone who actually works with instruments, not just software. The handshake lingers a beat longer than professional, and when he releases me, my skin remembers the pressure. "Jasmine Harlow-Blackwood." My voice comes out steadier than expected. "And yes, escape was definitely on the agenda." "Want company in your strategic retreat?

The bar over there is quieter." He gestures to a smaller space off the main ballroom, and there's no pressure in the invitation. Just genuine offer of conversation from someone who also doesn't quite fit the networking machinery. I should say no. Should make polite excuse and retreat to my room where it's safe. Where the only temptation is another call home, another tether to the life waiting for me. But my mouth opens and different words emerge. "Sure. That sounds good." He's funny without trying too hard.

Makes observations about the conference that are sharp and insightful but delivered with self-deprecation that keeps them from feeling mean. Intelligent without showing off, no name-dropping or credentials parading. Just genuine engagement with ideas. "So what brought you to Nashville?" He leans forward, genuinely interested. Not the polite interest that's really waiting for their turn to talk. Actually listening. I tell him about the panel invitation, about stepping back into the professional world after five years away.

Don't mention why I stepped away-the children, the complicated family structure, all the reasons I haven't been Jasmine-the-producer. Just that I took time off and now I'm testing whether I still know how to be this person. "What was your last project?" he asks. I name the album, wait for recognition. For the moment his face changes when he realizes who I am, places me in the industry hierarchy. Nothing. No flicker of recognition. He doesn't know my work, has no preconceptions about who Jasmine Harlow-Blackwood is supposed to be. The freedom in that anonymity is intoxicating.

"Tell me about it," he says, and proceeds to actually listen while I describe the production process. Asks intelligent questions. Challenges some of my approaches with genuine curiosity rather than condescension. We fall into technical discussion that has my pulse racing-not from attraction, just from the pure joy of talking craft with someone who understands. Then he tells a story about a recording session gone catastrophically wrong. Something about a singer who insisted on recording naked for "artistic authenticity" and the trauma inflicted on the sound engineer.

The way he tells it-timing perfect, details precise, building to a punchline that lands with devastating accuracy-makes me laugh. Actually laugh, not the polite chuckle reserved for social situations. He throws his head back when he joins my laughter. Full, uninhibited, and I notice the line of his throat. The strong column exposed, Adam's apple bobbing. The way his eyes crinkle at the corners, genuine joy crinkling the skin. My stomach does something complicated. Flips, tightens, heat spreading low and unwelcome. The realization hits with physical force: I'm attracted to him.

Not just appreciating his humor or intelligence. Not just enjoying conversation with a professional equal. Actually, viscerally attracted. Want to trace that throat with my fingertips. Want to see if his hair is as soft as it looks. Want to know what his mouth tastes like, what sounds he makes when he's overwhelmed by sensation. The thought makes my hands shake. I set down my wine glass before I drop it, press my palms flat against my thighs under the table. This is dangerous. This is the territory I swore I wouldn't enter. I'm here for work, for remembering who I am professionally.

Not for-this. But I don't leave. Can't leave. We keep talking, and it's so easy. So effortless in ways conversation hasn't been in years. No navigating around complicated family dynamics or managing multiple people's needs. Just two people connecting over shared passion. Two hours evaporate. The reception empties around us, other attendees trickling away to dinners or rooms or whatever networking opportunities they're chasing. We barely notice. Just talk about music and the industry and creativity. About the challenges of staying authentic while commercial.

About the songs that haunt us, the ones we're chasing and may never catch. He doesn't ask about my personal life. Doesn't pry into the five-year gap or why I'm here alone. Either not curious or polite enough not to push. And I don't volunteer. Don't mention the girls or the three men or the complicated fracturing mess waiting back home. In this space, for these hours, I'm just Jasmine. Not Mommy, not partner, not glue holding broken pieces together. Just me. Eventually, the bartender starts giving pointed looks. The space is closing, our presence becoming intrusive.

Elijah notices first, glances at his watch and winces. "Shit. I've kept you way past reasonable conversation time." "I wasn't exactly protesting." The words come out warmer than intended, and something shifts in his expression. Recognition. Interest. The kind that has nothing to do with professional networking. We reach my door. I dig for my keycard with hands that aren't quite steady, hyperaware of his presence beside me. Of the space between our bodies-inches that feel simultaneously too much and not enough. "This was the best conversation I've had in months." His voice is quiet, sincere.

"Would you want to grab a drink tomorrow after panels?" Yes. The answer rises immediately, viscerally. I want that. Want more of this ease, this connection, this person who sees me without baggage. "Yes. I'd like that." His smile is genuine, warm, but then something flickers-uncertainty, maybe awareness of implications. "It's a date. Well, not a date-date. Industry colleague drink. Thing." The awkwardness is endearing. This man who's been so confident in conversation suddenly stumbling over social niceties, trying to categorize what this is. What we might be becoming. I laugh.

Really laugh, from somewhere deep in my chest. First genuine laughter in weeks that isn't performative or managed. Just spontaneous joy at his earnest fumbling. "I'd like that," I repeat, and mean it with dangerous intensity. "Good. Great. I'll-we'll figure out timing tomorrow." He's backing away, still smiling, clearly pleased despite his verbal stumbling. "Goodnight, Jasmine." "Goodnight, Elijah." I slide into my room, close the door, lean against it with eyes closed. My heart is racing, chest tight, skin hypersensitive. I'm awake in ways I haven't been in years.

Every nerve ending firing, body humming with awareness and want and the terrifying recognition of chemistry I shouldn't be feeling. My phone buzzes. Once, twice, three times. I pull it out. Messages from all three of them. Liam: Girls finally asleep. Missing you. Bed's too empty. Asher: Long day. Wish you were here to decompress with. Finn: Zoe asked if tomorrow counts as one sleep or two. Killed me. Come home soon. The guilt crashes over me with devastating force. These men love me. Are home with our daughters, managing chaos and bedtime routines and missing me.

And I'm standing in a hotel room thinking about another man's throat, about the way his eyes crinkle when he laughs, about tomorrow's drink that we both know is more than professional courtesy. I respond to each message. Pour love into words, reassurance and longing and promises. Mean every word even as my mind is elsewhere. Even as part of me is already anticipating tomorrow, counting hours until I see Elijah again. I slide into bed. Expensive sheets cool against overheated skin. Close my eyes and see Liam's face, Asher's careful smile, Finn's easy affection.

See my daughters sleeping peacefully, trusting I'll come back. But I also see Elijah's laugh. The way he looked at me-really saw me. The ease of conversation that didn't require navigating complicated dynamics or managing everyone's needs. The guilt should consume me. Should make sleep impossible. Instead, lying there in the dark, phone full of love from the men I've built a life with, all I feel is alive. Dangerously, terrifyingly alive in ways I'd forgotten existed.

Awake to possibility and desire and the recognition that maybe Jasmine-just Jasmine, separate from everyone she takes care of-still exists somewhere underneath five years of maternal obligation. And that woman wants things. Dangerous things. Things that have nothing to do with the life waiting back home. Things that might destroy everything if I'm not careful. If I don't choose to be careful. Virgin Dot Com