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[Jasmine's POV] The conversation goes for hours. Time loses meaning when you're dismantling five years of your life, when every word is a wrecking ball swinging through carefully constructed walls. We cry. We accuse. We defend. We excavate truth from layers of denial we've been burying it under. Finn goes first, maybe because he's always been the most honest or maybe because he can't carry it anymore. "I've been thinking about Sienna constantly." His voice cracks. "Not just sexually. Everything. I imagine conversations with her. Plan my days around seeing her.

I'm emotionally cheating, and I can't stop." The admission opens floodgates. Asher shifts beside him, and I watch the confession form on his lips before he speaks it. "Elena understands me in ways I can't explain. She doesn't need me to be anything other than what I am. With her, I don't have to juggle or perform or apologize for my attention being divided." Liam's turn. He looks at his hands like they hold answers. "I'm drowning. Every day I'm drowning, and I don't know how to save any of us.

I'm exhausted from trying to hold this together, from being the responsible one, from watching us all suffer while pretending we're fine." They all turn to me. Waiting. The weight of their confessions sits heavy in the air, and mine feels like detonation I'm about to trigger. My throat closes around the words, but I force them out because we're past the point of protective lies. "I almost kissed Elijah." The confession lands like bomb. Silence detonates outward, consuming oxygen, leaving nothing but aftermath.

Watching their faces process my near-infidelity is watching mirrors shatter-each fragment reflecting different damage. Liam's jaw clenches so tight I hear his teeth grind. Asher's eyes close like he's been struck. Finn stands, starts pacing like movement will organize the chaos in his head. "Almost?" Liam's voice is carefully controlled. Too controlled. The kind of control that precedes explosion. "How almost?" I force honesty even as it flays me open. "An inch. Maybe less. My phone rang before..." "Before you destroyed us?" Finn's voice is harsh, cutting.

He stops pacing to stare at me with something that looks like betrayal mixed with relief. "We were already destroyed," I say quietly. The truth of it settles in my chest like stones. "I just almost made it official." The weight of it-that I'd been emotionally unfaithful for weeks, that studio sessions were escapes from them rather than toward music-sits heavy as corpse between us. I'd been touching another man's skin in my mind while lying next to them. Had been imagining different lips, different hands, different life. The betrayal isn't in the almost-kiss. It's in the months of wanting to.

"So what now?" Asher's voice is flat. Defeated. "We all admit we're cheating emotionally and call it a day?" "No." Liam straightens. Even in devastation, he's trying to problem-solve. "We decide what we're doing. Officially. No more limbo." The word hangs: decide. Like we can choose our way out of this. Like decisions fix feelings. "Trial separation." The words escape before I've fully formed the thought. "Six months. See where we are." "Separation." Finn repeats it like he's testing the weight. "Meaning what?" The logistics unfurl in my mind with brutal clarity. "We keep co-parenting.

Live separately. Figure out what we actually want without the pressure of maintaining this." "Who stays?" Asher asks. Always practical, even while bleeding. "Liam and I stay in the house with the girls." The decision forms as I speak it. "You and Finn move out. You both have apartments you kept." Something shifts in the room. Abstract possibility crystallizing into concrete plan. This is happening. We're actually doing this. The decision made, we sit in hollow silence. Grief fills the space where words used to be. Asher speaks first, voice rough with emotion he's trying to mask.

"So this is it? Five years and we're just... done?" "We're not done." Liam says it with conviction that sounds like prayer. But everyone hears the lie underneath. The hope disguised as certainty. I look at them. Really look. Asher's shut down completely, defensive walls rebuilding brick by brick even as I watch. Finn's already half-gone, mind clearly on Sienna and the freedom this offers. Only Liam looks present-devastated but here, anchored in this moment even as it destroys him. The realization hits with sudden clarity that steals my breath: he's the one I want to fight for.

Not because I love him more-the love is equal, has always been equal. But because he's the only one still fighting for me. Still present. Still trying even when trying is what's killing us. The others have already left in the ways that matter. I'm just acknowledging what's already true. That night, packing begins. Asher moves through the house silent and methodical, removing himself from our life with the efficiency he brings to business deals. Each item goes into boxes with precision-clothes folded, books stacked, life dismantled with clinical detachment that hurts more than rage would.

Finn is opposite. Emotional, angry, throwing things into boxes without care for organization or order. He slams drawers, mutters under his breath, radiates fury at the unfairness of loving people you can't keep. A frame breaks when he shoves it too hard into cardboard. He stares at the shattered glass, and something in his face crumbles. Liam helps them both. Plays mediator even now, even at the end. Brings boxes to Asher, tape to Finn, maintains order while everything dissolves around him. He catches my eye across the room, and the devastation there nearly buckles my knees.

I watch from the doorway of Finn's room. Can't help, can't intervene, can't do anything but bear witness to this dissolution. My body feels hollow-chest carved out, organs removed, nothing left but shell going through motions. Every item they pack is goodbye. Every box sealed is ending. This is mourning. Watching love die while it's still technically alive. Watching men I've built a life with pack that life into cardboard, reduce five years to what fits in a U-Haul. Finn zips a duffel bag closed with force that speaks volumes.

"I need air." He pushes past me without meeting my eyes, and I hear the front door slam moments later. Asher continues his methodical dismantling. He'll probably work through the night, systematic and thorough, leaving no trace of himself behind. That's his way-complete extraction, clean break, no loose ends. Liam appears beside me. His hand finds mine, fingers lacing through mine with desperate pressure. "I'm terrified," he whispers. Just for me. Confession he won't make to the others. "Me too." My voice barely carries.

"What if this is a mistake?" "What if it's not?" He turns to face me, and the vulnerability in his expression strips away every defense I have left. "What if we need this to figure out what we really want?" "And if what we want is different than what we thought?" "Then at least we'll know." His thumb traces circles on my palm. Soothing gesture that soothes nothing. "I'd rather know than keep drowning." In Asher's room, I hear drawers closing. Methodical progress toward ending. Somewhere outside, Finn is walking or driving or finding some other escape.

And here, in this doorway, Liam and I stand at the precipice of whatever comes next. The girls are asleep. Unaware tomorrow their fathers won't both be here for breakfast. Unaware the family structure they've known is reconfiguring into something we can't yet define. "I want this to work," I tell Liam. Not sure if I mean the separation or us or something else entirely. "I know." He pulls me closer, and I let myself be held. "But maybe 'working' looks different than we thought." Maybe. Maybe not. Maybe we're making the worst mistake of our lives. Maybe we're finally making the right choice.

I don't know anymore. Don't know anything except that staying was killing us, and leaving might kill us differently. At least with leaving, we'll die honest. Virgin Dot Com