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[Jasmine's POV] Asher mentions it over coffee, casual as discussing the weather. "Hired a new assistant. Elena. She starts today." The words should be unremarkable. Administrative hiring, logistical necessity. But something in my chest tightens-an awareness I can't name, don't want to examine. I watch him pour his coffee, already mentally at the office though his body is still in our kitchen. "That's good." My voice sounds normal. Supportive. "You need the help." He kisses my temple on his way out, distracted and already elsewhere.

The door closes, and I'm alone with the echo of something that feels wrong in ways I can't articulate. By noon, I'm at Blackwood Industries with Liam's forgotten lunch. He's been working through meals again, surviving on coffee and whatever vending machine garbage the office provides. The receptionist waves me through-I've been here enough times that security doesn't bother checking my badge anymore. Just Jasmine, the woman who brings forgotten things to men who forget to take care of themselves. I see her through the glass wall of Asher's office. Striking doesn't cover it.

She's late twenties, all polished confidence in a pencil skirt and silk blouse that probably cost more than my entire wardrobe. Dark hair pulled into a sleek bun, makeup applied with the kind of precision that suggests professional training. She's gesturing at something on Asher's desk, and he's leaning forward, actually listening. Not the half-listening he does with me anymore, where his attention splinters into a thousand work obligations. Present. Engaged. Focused. My stomach drops. It's not attraction-or not just attraction. It's the recognition of someone who speaks his language.

Who exists in his world without demanding he split himself between competing priorities. Who's organized and competent and doesn't come with the messy complications of children and domestic chaos and emotional needs that can't be scheduled into fifteen-minute increments. Elena is explaining something-I can see her mouth moving, hands sketching organizational systems in the air. She's incredibly efficient, I can tell already. The kind of person who turns chaos into structure, who makes everything run smoothly.

The kind of person Asher probably dreams about when he's drowning in administrative disasters at two AM. He smiles at something she says. Full smile, reaching his eyes, genuine amusement crinkling the corners in ways I haven't seen in months. My chest constricts. When's the last time I made him smile like that? When's the last time I was the source of his joy instead of another obligation on his endless list? Arms wrap around my waist from behind. Liam's chin settles on my shoulder, solid and warm, and his familiar scent-coffee and expensive cologne-surrounds me.

For a moment, I let myself sink into him, let his presence anchor me against the spiral of thoughts I'm trying not to think. "Penny for your thoughts?" His voice is low, intimate, meant only for me. I lean back into his chest, feel his heartbeat steady against my spine. "Just wondering when we became people who work more than we live." He sighs into my hair, and the sound carries weight-exhaustion, regret, the accumulated grief of choices made and consequences borne. "Soon. Once this investor crisis is handled, I promise." Promises.

We're drowning in promises that never materialize into presence. Soon becomes later becomes someday becomes never, and I'm tired of living in the space between intention and reality. I pull away gently, hold up his lunch bag. "You forgot this." "Right." He takes it, fingers brushing mine, and there's warmth in his eyes that makes my throat tight. "What would I do without you?" Collapse, probably. They all would. But the thought doesn't bring satisfaction-just bone-deep exhaustion at being the person who remembers lunch and permission slips and that human beings need more than work to survive.

I force myself to walk into Asher's office. Professional. Friendly. Not a woman watching her husband light up for someone who isn't her. Elena turns, extends her hand with practiced ease. "You must be Jasmine. Dr. Chen mentioned you. I'm Elena." Her handshake is firm, confident. Up close, she's even more striking-dark eyes intelligent and assessing, smile genuine without being obsequious. I want to hate her. Want to find something artificial or calculating or wrong. But she's just competent and kind, which makes everything worse.

"Nice to meet you." My voice stays steady through the performance. "Welcome to the chaos." "Oh, I thrive in chaos." She gestures at Asher's desk, which is already starting to show signs of organization. Color-coded folders, a new filing system, his schedule displayed on an iPad instead of scattered across seventeen Post-it notes. "It's what I do." Asher looks almost sheepish. "Elena's already fixed six months of my organizational disasters in three hours." There's admiration in his voice. Appreciation.

And something else-relief, maybe, at finding someone who can manage the parts of his life he's too overwhelmed to handle. I should be grateful. Should be thrilled he's found help, found someone to ease the crushing weight of responsibility. Instead, I feel myself becoming smaller. Less necessary. Just another task on his list that someone more competent could probably handle better. "That's great." I smile, and it feels like my face might crack.

"I should let you both get back to work." I'm halfway down the hall when I hear it-Elena's laugh, bright and musical, followed by Asher's deeper chuckle. The sound stops me dead. I turn, see them through the glass. Her saying something animated, hands gesturing. Him responding, that smile still playing at the corners of his mouth. Easy. Natural. The kind of interaction that doesn't require emotional labor or navigating the minefield of accumulated resentments. My hands shake. I shove them in my pockets and force myself to keep walking. That evening, after the girls are asleep, I mention it.

Casual. Offhand. Not like it's been eating at me all day, replaying in loops I can't shut off. "Met Asher's new assistant today." Finn looks up from his laptop. "Elena? Yeah, Ash mentioned her. Supposed to be really good." "She seems... very efficient." "That's kind of the point." He's studying me now, head tilted in that way that means he's analyzing subtext. "You're not seriously worried about Asher's assistant?" The question should be absurd. I should laugh it off, make a joke about my irrational insecurities. Instead, my throat is tight, and the words come out small. "No. I just...

we barely see each other anymore." The silence that follows is heavy. Finn closes his laptop, crosses the room, pulls me into his arms with the kind of deliberate care that suggests he knows I'm fracturing. His hand cups the back of my head, and I press my face into his chest, breathing in his familiar scent. "Hey." His voice is gentle. "You know that's not-" "I know." I pull back, wipe my eyes roughly. "I know it's not about her. It's about us.

About how we don't exist anymore outside of schedules and logistics and crisis management." Asher appears in the doorway, still in his suit, exhaustion carved into every line of his face. He takes in the scene-me obviously upset, Finn holding me-and something flickers across his expression. Guilt. Regret. Fear. He crosses to us, pulls me out of Finn's arms and into his own. His embrace is tight, almost desperate, one hand splayed across my lower back while the other tangles in my hair. I feel his heart racing against mine, feel the tremor in his fingers.

"Work won't always be this crazy." The words are whispered into my hair, fierce and pleading. "I swear to you, Jazz. This is temporary." I want to believe him. Want to sink into that promise and let it be enough. But I've heard this before-after the last crisis, after the merger, after every catastrophe that demanded their complete attention. Temporary has become permanent. Crisis has become baseline. And I'm drowning in the space between their promises and my reality. I don't say any of this. Just nod against his chest and let him hold me while Finn watches with eyes that see too much.

Let him believe his words carry weight when we both know they're just more empty reassurance. But later, lying in bed alone while he works in his office and Finn produces in the studio and Liam reviews contracts until dawn, I think about Elena. About how she made him smile. About how easy their interaction looked-uncomplicated by years of accumulated disappointments and unmet needs. And I wonder if maybe the problem isn't that I'm jealous of her. Maybe the problem is that I'm jealous of who he gets to be with her-present, engaged, unburdened by the weight of our slowly collapsing family.

Maybe the problem is that I'm starting to envy anyone who gets the versions of them I used to have. Virgin Dot Com