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[Jasmine's POV] Asher is different. Not in obvious ways-nothing about him shifts dramatically. But his stress level has dropped noticeably, the tight set of his shoulders easing, the lines around his eyes less pronounced. He's sleeping better. Eating more. Coming home before midnight most nights. Elena has streamlined everything. That's what he says when I comment on the change. Elena reorganized his meeting schedule. Elena implemented a new filing system. Elena, Elena, Elena.

"Elena found this solution for the staffing shortage." He's making coffee, voice casual, and doesn't see me flinch at the name. "Turns out we were scheduling wrong for years." "That's great." The words taste wrong in my mouth. "She suggested this new protocol for post-op follow-ups. Cut my administrative time by forty percent." There's admiration in his voice. Genuine appreciation for competence, and I can't fault him for it. Can't articulate why hearing him praise her efficiency makes my chest constrict. I stop by his office Thursday evening.

Need to drop off the insurance documents he forgot, though forgot feels generous-more likely filed in the Elena-organized system where he can access them remotely. The building is mostly empty, fluorescent lights harsh against gathering darkness. I find them in his office. Not doing anything inappropriate-hunched over his desk reviewing what looks like meeting schedules. But there's an ease between them that makes my stomach drop. Professional, yes, but warm underneath. The comfort of two people who've developed shorthand, who anticipate each other's needs without discussion.

Elena laughs at something he says. Asher smiles-full, genuine, the kind I haven't seen directed at me in weeks. They're problem-solving together, trading solutions with the rhythm of practiced collaboration. "Jazz." He looks up, surprise flickering across his face. "What are you doing here?" What am I doing here. In my partner's office. Where I used to be welcome without question. "Insurance forms." I set them on the desk, careful not to disturb their organized chaos. "You needed them for tomorrow." "Right. Thanks." He's already turning back to the screen, attention shifting.

"Elena, if we move Dr. Patterson's schedule-" I leave before hearing the solution. Before watching her be brilliant at anticipating his needs, handling his chaos, being everything I apparently stopped being somewhere between kindergarten dropoff and paternity tests. That night, jealousy claws through me with physical force. Not rational. Not fair. Just visceral and consuming, settling in my bones and demanding outlet. I find Asher in the bedroom, undressing after another late evening, and something in me snaps. I kiss him before he can speak. Hard. Demanding.

My hands work his belt with more urgency than finesse, and his surprise quickly shifts to response. His hands grip my hips, pulling me closer, and we're stumbling toward the bed with the gracelessness of desperation. I push him down. Straddle him. Take control in ways I usually don't, riding the edge between passion and something darker. Trying to reclaim territory I'm terrified I'm losing. His hands reach for me, but I pin them above his head, holding his wrists against the mattress. The position gives me leverage. Gives me power.

Lets me set the pace-harder, faster, more demanding than usual. His breathing turns ragged, eyes dark with arousal and confusion tangling together. "What are you doing?" The question comes out strangled, asked against my mouth when I lean down. "Reminding you who you come home to." The words gasp out between movements, and I hear the desperation underneath. Hear myself begging wrapped in bravado. His laugh is dark, almost cruel. "Like I could forget." But there's something in his tone-amusement edged with recognition of my fear. He knows.

Knows I'm claiming him because I'm terrified someone else is becoming necessary. His hands break my grip, flip our positions. Now he's above me, in control, and his mouth finds my throat with possessive intent. "You think I could forget this?" His voice is rough against my skin. "Forget you?" Yes. The answer burns in my throat but I swallow it. Let physical sensation override the voice screaming that Elena gets his admiration, his best self, the version that isn't depleted by domestic obligation. We finish together, or close enough.

Collapse in tangled sheets, breathing hard, sweat cooling on skin. He pulls me close, arms banding around me with familiar weight. For a moment-brief, precious-everything feels right. Feels secure. Then he's asleep. Quick descent into unconsciousness that leaves me alone with thoughts that won't quiet. I lie in the dark, his arm heavy across my waist, and wonder if that's true. If he really couldn't forget me, or if he's just better at lying than I am at believing. Days later, I'm in the kitchen when I hear his voice drifting from the home office. He's on the phone.

I move closer without thinking, drawn by the animation in his tone. "-exactly what I said to the board. You should have seen their faces." He's laughing, engaged in a way that makes my chest ache. "No, you're right. That approach would have been political suicide." He's talking to Elena. I know without confirmation, recognize the ease in his voice that comes from speaking to someone who understands his professional world. Someone who doesn't need context or translation. "Honestly, today was brutal. Lost a patient in the OR.

Thirty-two years old, routine procedure, just-" His voice breaks slightly. "Yeah. Thanks. I needed to hear that." The realization hits with devastating force. He's sharing things he used to share with me. Not intimate details-he's always been private aboutoffive complications. But these daily moments. The small stuff that builds connection. The scaffolding of relationship constructed from mundane exchanges about work stress and professional frustrations. When did Elena become the person he processes his day with?

When did I get relegated to logistics coordinator and mother of his non-biological children? I retreat before he catches me listening. Find Liam in the living room, attempting to work through the chaos of the girls playing at his feet. He looks up when I appear, and something in my expression makes him set aside his laptop. "What's wrong?" "Do you think-" The words stick. How do I articulate this without sounding paranoid? "Asher and Elena. They work together a lot." "She's his assistant." He's studying me now, trying to decode subtext.

"She's supposed to work with him." "But he's sharing things. With her. Things he used to share with me." "He's just stressed, Jazz. Elena's helping. That's good, right?" Is it? The question lodges in my throat because I don't have an answer. Is it good that another woman has become necessary to his functioning? That she anticipates his needs better than I do? That he smiles for her in ways he hasn't smiled for me in weeks? "Right." The word comes out hollow. "Good." Liam's hand finds mine, squeezes reassurance.

But he's already looking back at his laptop, attention splitting between me and the work that's always demanding more. And I'm left standing there wondering if I'm being paranoid or prescient. If I'm inventing problems or finally acknowledging what's been obvious for weeks. That night, I watch Asher scroll through his phone at dinner. See him smile at a message, and the smile doesn't reach me. Doesn't include me. Whatever brought it lives in a space I'm not part of anymore. "Work thing?" I ask, voice carefully neutral. "Elena sent over the revised schedules.

She's unbelievably efficient." There's admiration there again. That tone reserved for people who make his life easier instead of more complicated. The girls are chattering about school, oblivious to the way their mother's chest is constricting. Oblivious to how their father is slowly, invisibly, building connection with someone who exists outside the mess of our family. Someone competent and uncomplicated and necessary in ways I'm terrified I'm no longer. After they're asleep, I try again.

Pull Asher into the bedroom with manufactured seduction, trying to prove that physical need can override the emotional distance growing between us. He responds-his body always responds-but there's something perfunctory underneath the passion. He's going through motions, hitting familiar notes, while some essential part of him remains elsewhere. Lying in the dark afterward, his breathing evening into sleep, I stare at the ceiling and confront the truth I've been avoiding. Elena is becoming indispensable. Not sexually-I don't think, can't prove, desperately hope not. But emotionally.

Professionally. In all the ways that matter when you're building intimacy that doesn't require nudity. And I'm lying here in the bed we share, in the family we built, watching him slip away into a connection I can't compete with because it's uncomplicated by paternity tests and domestic chaos and the weight of five years spent trying to prove love transcends biology. Elena doesn't have our history. Doesn't carry the baggage. Just offers efficiency and understanding and the version of Asher who isn't constantly exhausted by everything our family demands. Maybe Liam's right.

Maybe it's good that she's helping. Or maybe I'm watching my partner fall into someone else's orbit while I'm too busy holding everyone else together to notice I'm losing my grip on him. Virgin Dot Com