Shifted Fate Novel

Chapter 439 +15 Bonus " What the fuck … " I felt like my world was crashing down on me . My head was full of his words and I was confused to how we even got here . I turned to face Sterling , and he was clearly avoiding my gaze . " Sterling . " He looked over at me finally , and I could see the truth behind his eyes . " Yeah ? " " Have you read any of these ? " I dropped the letter into the box . My gaze fell back to the box between my feet and I counted over fifty letters … maybe more .

"How long has he been sending these ? " 1 Sterling closed his eyes for a second , like he was trying to come up with an answer that wouldn't break me . His hand tightened on the steering wheel . " No , like I said , I haven't read anything that was sent to you . " He swallowed . " They were meant for your eyes only , and even if we couldn't give them to you , we were going to invade your and Rowan's privacy . " I felt my eyes tighten . " But ? " He sighed .

" But I saw him whenever he dropped off the letters . He was becoming more and more desperate for you to answer . " He looked like he might get sick . " I wanted to tell him . About the fact you weren't answering because you didn't know , but I couldn't . " I settled a little . I could hear the pain in his voice . " Your feeling guilty ? " I asked , but I already knew the answer . He nodded . " Goddess yes . " He glanced at me . " You don't understand .

" His hands flexed , and I could tell he was becoming frustrated . " Then explain it to me because I'm pretty lost right now . " I looked down at the letters . " I don't even know why or when they started . And by the looks of it , he sent quite a few . " I bent down and tried to count them . " How many are even here ? " I heard Sterling swallow again . " Over seventy . " I snapped up . " What ? " " Rowan sent you a letter every week since your heat .

" He looked out the windshield , avoiding my gaze . " I lost track after seventy . " He looked away . " That's a lie . " He wiped his face on his shoulder . " I stopped counting because every day I saw the pile grow bigger , the guiltier I felt . " I sighed as I looked down . I grabbed another letter and noticed there was a tiny number on the top of this one . Fifty - six . I dropped it and grabbed another . Thirty - five . " The numbers ? " His eyes darted to the letter in my hands .

" A system Jora came up with after the second letter . " He squeezed the wheel . " He thought that if we ever got to give you them , this way you could keep track of their order . So anytime he gave us a letter for you , we numbered it and dropped it into a pile . Once the pile got too big for the drawer , we dumped them into a box . " He looked down at the box between my legs . " We upgraded to the bigger box a few months ago .

We thought he was going to keep sending them … " He trailed off as he looked at the open letter on top . " But then he stopped . " My throat hurt . I sat back and felt the truth cascade down on top of me . My heart felt like my ribs were 1/3 Chapter 439 crushing it . Everything grew blurry , and my breathing became labored . " Yeah . " His voice was so far away I barely heard him . +15 Bonus My mind flashed back to the night Carl died . Rowan kneeling in the dirt and blood .

Hurt and bleeding from the fighting , but still he stared at me . I felt the cold take over my body as I remembered his eyes begging me . ' Let me explain . ' But didn't let him did I. I looked down at the letter and the truth hit me . I was mad because he was supposed to wait for me . My eyes snagged on the bottom line . Remember , I love you and only you . My heart squeezed . He had waited . The sob broke free faster than I thought .

Sterling's head snapped towards me , but then he turned away , leaving me alone with my pain . " This can't be happening . " My voice was ragged as another sob broke free . I smacked my hand over my mouth to stop another from breaking free . I needed to wait . I couldn't break down yet . Oh goddess , what have I done ? " I'm sorry . " Sterling's voice was soft as he slid one of his hands off the wheel and wrapped his fingers through mine . " I'm sorry I had to keep this from you .

" I sniffled as I chuckled . " This wasn't you fault . You had no choice . " I felt him squeeze my fingers . " My father made sure of that . " He sighed . " I know . But I'm still sorry . And believe me , I'll be going to tell Rowan as soon as I dropped you off . " " Please don't . " I pulled his hand . Comments Support