Shifted Fate Novel

Chapter 209 Toya finished reading the email , as another came in .

This one marked personal .

I think this one might have more of an explanation .

She pointed to the notification , but I was still frozen where I sank on to my bed when I read it .

He had to date these women .

What about me ? I heard a soft sad howl from the darkness of my forest where Nix had taken up residence in my soul .

She hadnt come out in a long time , and Megan only appeared periodically .

They left me alone to deal with everything .

And while I can kind of understand , I was growing resentful of my wolves .

I was already cut adrift by my father .

I had pulled away from my mother to sell my sadness .

Her sadness .

Rowan was doing his part and then there was us .

So divided , they refused to come out any more .

We were supposed to be planning our next steps and I couldnt even speak with them .

I shook my head .

I had let them pull away because , obviously ; they had things they needed to deal with that they didnt want to share with me just yet , but I was at the end of my rope .

I pushed myself to approach the forest edge , and I called back to my two wolves .

Enough is enough .

I dont know why you guys pulled away from me , but you left me alone to deal with all of this myself .

This silence was answer enough .

I pulled my magic closer to me since it was the last thing that I had .

You are letting a man come between us .

Again .

I screamed and then I turned away .

Ouch .

Toya jumped back from me and my eyes snapped open and to her .

Whats wrong ? s flinched back from my hand and pointed .

I looked down at my hands to find sparks dancing between my fingers .

I hurt you ? My voice was hallow .

It was an accident .

Toya came back to my side .

Im fine .

I just wasnt expecting it .

I closed my eyes and shook my head , pushing my power away to its grove and giving it a quick goodbye .

I appreciated it , and I didnt want to offend it and lose it , too Sorry .

I just … I shook my head as I felt a frustrated tear well up .

What is going on , Amy ? You havent been yourself in a while .

Nix and Megan pulled away the last night Rowan was here I wiped at the tears on my cheeks , They see everything Im dealing with , but obviously what ever they are dealing with is more important because they left me alone for a man .

I could hear the bitterness in my voice , taste it on my tongue .

Maybe they just needed to pull back and figure things out .

Toya was trying to be helpful but I snorted .

Has Taz ever been so wrapped up in her own feelings that she refused to talk to you ? Has your wolf pulled away so deeply that she refused to emerge even in the safety of your own mind ? Megan comes out every month or so to say a word or two , then slinks back , but Nix ? Nix has been gone for six months .

I flopped back onto my bed .

Ive been alone for six months .

And I get it .

We all need space .

But when is it going to be enough ? Oh Amy .

Toya came over and wrapped me in her arms .

Why havent you told any of us ? Because I didnt want you guys to pull away , too .

I didnt want to be that girl that doesnt have a wolf .

I pulled away enough to look up at her .

Ive lived that life .

Last time I had Nixs voice , but I wasnt able to shift .

Now Im able to shift but I dont have the actual wolf .

I crumpled into her arms .

And shifting is becoming harder .

I said the last words as a whisper .

My truth , I didnt want to face .

Since Nix and Megan had pulled away from me , every time I shifted , it hurt more and more .

The damage I was doing to force the shift was painful , and it lasted longer and longer .

After todays training session , I was in so much pain I actually had to ask Sterling to get me some willow bark capsules to make it to my exam .

Amy … you know we can get addicted to that stuff .

I just nodded .

1/2 Chapter 209 +25 BONUS I had no other way .

I couldnt move .

I put my head in my hands .

I ran home in wolf form because I struggled to shift yesterday .

And today , today my leg got stuck .

Toya gasped .

What are we going to do ? Toya held me close , but I pulled away as my main phone rang out .

I pulled the phone out of my pocket and answered .

Hello ? Hey Amy … its Jora .

I closed my eyes .

Yeah Jora , whats up ? Alpha Nina and Brandon are still waiting down here to see you .

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