Shifted Fate Novel

Chapter 189 The knock on the door has the two of us jumping apart .

I stared up at him with wide eyes .

What the fuck was that ? Was he toying with me now ? I shook my head to clear the muddled thoughts racing through my mind .

I needed to take a few steps back , but the counter was behind me .

I wanted to push him away , but I knew if I touched him , I would fall apart .

I would jump into his arms and I would allow him to walk over my heart like I did with Brandon .

He isnt him .

Megans soft voice countered my inner thoughts .

He is nice , and just , and- And not mine .

I stopped her .

If I allow myself to think about him in any other way , I think I will shatter this time .

He might not be Brandon , but I never really liked him as a person .

I loved him as my mate because we were destined to be together .

As the moon goddess intended , but I never viewed him as a friend , a partner .

Someone I could grow with .

I felt the burn of tears .

I can see that with Rowan .

Then why not ? Nixs voice was softer than I had ever heard her .

Why not see where this could go ? Because .

I looked up into his eyes that were searching mine .

Because he doesnt actually want me .

I have to be smarter than I was in my last life .

We need to be smarter .

I coughed as I realized we were just staring at each other .

I should get that .

I looked away as I reached back to turn off the water .

I trailed against the cupboards , trying my best not to touch him , but his eyes trailed me the entire time .

I rounded the corner and wiped away the tear that finally fell as I straightened my shoulders .

Yeah .

Sure .

Rowans voice trailed me and I closed my eyes for a second , leaning against the wall to collect myself .

But I didnt have long as the knock sounded again and I could hear the faint sniffles coming from my mother .

I think Rowan heard her too .

His voice came closer .

I should actually get going .

I felt a punch to my gut , but I shook it off .

This was for the best .

This is what I needed .

Of course .

I smiled as he rounded the corner .

He stared at my face for a second too long , and I knew he probably caught the slight redness in my eyes from fighting the tears .

I coughed again and turned back to the door .

Thank you for coming .

I appreciated the backup when talking to everyone .

You arent mad that I told them ? That Im going to tell my mother ? No.

Rowans voice was soft .

I felt a slight breeze near my shoulder and I closed my eyes .

Please , goddess , dont let him touch me .

I prayed .

I wont be around , and I want you to have people you can trust around you .

Good .

I smiled .

Thank you for the apartment .

It is amazing .

I smiled over my shoulder .

No worries .

Rowan ran a hand through his hair .

Amy ? could tell he wanted to discuss it .

But I cut my eyes away before he caught the sheen of tears in my eyes .

Please dont .

I begged .

Not right now .

Yeah ? I turned as we reached the door .

Nothing .

His eyes cut away as he tucked his hands into the front pockets of his jeans .

Im heading back out tonight , and I dont know when I will get to see you next .

Oh .

I felt hallow as his words hit me like physical blows .

I understand .

You are the king .

He nodded .

And from the looks of what happened today , have a lot of things I need to clean up .

He closed his eyes .

About today ..

Dont even worry about it .

Its my fault .

I smiled up at him and opened the door , effectively cutting off any conversation we would have had .

I dont think I would survive him telling me he couldnt or wouldnt be with me .

He is not your mate .

He is not your mate .

I ran the words through my mind on repeat .

The tears were getting closer to spiling over and I really didnt want him here to witness it .

Baby .

My moms voice broke the tension , and we both turned to face her .

Her dark brown hair was a mess , her face swollen and red from her sobs .

Her eyes with shifted to her wolves , and I knew she was about to break apart .

Chapter 189 +25 BONUS He … She stumbled over her words when she saw Rowan .

But her grief won out .

Hes gone baby .

You dad is gone .

She practically ran into my arms and as I wrapped my arms around her waist , she shattered .

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