Shifted Fate Novel

Chapter 195 The next few weeks passed in a whirlwind of class , training , and silence .

I dragged myself through the door after yet another long day .

I dropped my dinner onto my coffee table and face planted onto my couch , and groaned .

I was exhausted .

I wasnt sleeping properly and in between classes and the double training ; I was running on hopes and dreams at this point .

I rolled over with a groan .

Fuck .

My phone gave a tiny ding , and I scrambled to pull it out of my pocket .

It was a quick text from Wendy telling me she made it home .

I tossed my phone with another groan .

This time , I sat up and screamed .

Im so fucking stupid .

gripped my head in my hands and pulled at my hair .

Goddess , how could I be so stupid ? I stood and stalked my way to the bathroom connected to my bedroom and stripped off my clothes .

Youre not stupid .

Megan offered , but Nix stayed silent .

I jumped under the hot spray and instantly crumpled to the floor .

I leaned my head against my knees and for the first time since coming back to my moms , I cried.

Im being so stupid .

And weak .

You are not .

Youre allowed to have feelings .

Megan came closer .

But I just shook my head .

Feelings make us weak .

We already took this path .

I gave myself fully to my mate , and he killed me .

He used my emotions against me and killed our pup .

And now here I am , mooning over a man who doesnt even like me .

The tears burned , but at least the fall of the shower hid their fall .

Im crying because he hasnt messaged me or emailed me in weeks .

And I know hes busy Megan , I do , and I know I am the last thing he has to worry about but … My words trailed off as fresh tears fell .

But you wish he would .

Nix finished as she slunk out of the trees and I just nodded .

Is it too much to ask to have someone want me for me ? Not for my power , my aura , or what I could do for them , Just me ? Of course not .

Megan tried to make me feel better .

You are amazing .

Just not not amazing enough .

I whispered as a sob broke free Amy … Nix tried , but I shook my head .

Its okay .

Im giving myself two more minutes to pity myself .

Two more minutes to cry and then Im going to get up , shower , eat and go to bed .

You need to sleep , Megan agreed .

minutes Just two I huddled on my shower floor and released the floodgates .

I allowed myself to feel the loss , even though he was never mine to begin with .

After I counted to one hundred and twenty seconds , I wiped my face and got to my feet .

I started my shower routine and stared at the tile .

Amy ? Nix came closer , but I shook my head .

That was the last time I will cry over any man .

I swiped a the invisible tears on my face and gave a small , sad laugh .

It was a foolish thought to begin with .

No , it wasnt .

Megan pushed against the wall , and Nix sat next to her .

He gave little hints that he liked us .

I gave another little laugh .

But hints mean nothing compared to action and words .

I grabbed for my shampoo , missing my old scent .

I got so wrapped up in the hints , I was missing what he was showing me .

10 Chapter 195 +25 BONUS Amy … Nix pressed closer .

plan .

I felt Its okay .

Im okay or I will be .

I can stop focusing on the fact he isnt reaching out and focus on the plan both of my wolves look at each other .

Okay .

If that is what you want .

Megan offered .

We can help you keep on track .

Nix offered .

I smiled , I could feel their souls like they could feel mine , and I knew they were hurting for me .

I could feel our souls swirling around each other , each of us trying to shield the other from the pain we all will feel .

Megan felt hers when she had to ignore her mate .

Im feeling mine , with a man I want , not wanting me back .

Nix when she felt our pup being ripped from our body .

We have all been shattered .

Megan started .

But it is how we pull ourselves back together that matters .

Nix offered .

Youre right .

I stretched my arms up and then shut off the water .

This wouldnt break me .

Now lets eat .

Im starving .

I wrapped my hair up and walked out of the bathroom in my towels .

I headed to the front room .

, to my dinner , but I had to stop at the end of the hallway to yawn .

My jaw cracked , and I groaned as I went into a full body stretch .

I shook my head and groaned .

Fuck Im tired .

You look it .

A dark voice called from my sofa and I screamed as my eyes snapped open .