My dominant boss novel alyssa and Wyatt novel

My Dominant Boss Chapter Forty Four Will they ever stop ? Wyatt I wake up suddenly from my recurring nightmare , drenched in swent with my heart racing .

Will they ever stop ? I let out a breath and run my fingers through my wet hair .

1 glance over at Alyssa , which is still sound asleep .

Im relieved that I didnt wake her up with my whimpering in my sleep .

Trauman sucks ! Does I ever go away from ? I am tempted to wake Alyssa up .

She said I could , but I wont .

My mive will be purely selfish if I did .

It will be to help distract myself from my dark thoughts .

It would be unfair to her .

When I looked at the clock , it showed four oclock .

I only fell asleep about an hour and a half ago .

There is no way I will get back to sleep .

I carefully and silently climb out of bed , being mindful not to wake her up .

I used to rely on sleeping pills for sleep .

I stopped them because of the side effects .

They messed with my mood , and It becure a struggle to keep it together during the day .

I wasnt able to concentrate on work like I was supposed to .

It was a mix of them and my antidepressants , something else I stopped taking because of side effects .

My doctor wasnt happy , but it was my life and my devisions .

I sneak out of the bedroom and head for the kitchen .

I needed water .

Although a scotch seems like the better choice , I cant have one because I have work in four hours .

I leave the lights off and find the sofa in the dark , taking a seat .

I will find something to occupy myself .

The gym sounds like a good idea .

The noise wont disturb Alyssa since its soundproof and in the basement .

Its the second most effective stress reliever for me .

Sex takes the top spot .

1 gulp down my water and make my way to the basement .

I keep workout clothes in my gym , so I wont need to disturb Alyssa .

I begin by pounding the punch bag , using it as a way to release my anger .

With each hook , the pain in my knuckles intensifies .

ignore the pain and continue until my blood seeps through the bandages wrapped around my hand .

The pain feels good .

Too good ! no longer have control , numbness has taken its place .

Wyatt , stop ? The sound of Alyssas concerned voice from behind me makes me step .

I look towards her , and she returns my gaze with a worried look .

My breathing is heavy , and my heart and pulse are racing .

No relings surface when our gazes meet .

The fear and sadness in her eyes have no effect on me .

Go back to bed , I demand and return to the punch bag .

Its not a good idea for her to be near me when I am like this .

She wont like me .

I get inside my head and dont want to be around anyone .

I hate it , but it is something that has happened for years .

Alyssa stays put .

Instead , she comes over and stands in front of the punch bag .

Wyatt , please stop .

Its not normal for you to bleed so much during boxing .

She whimpers .

The material is soaked with my blood , and it flows down my hands .

She cautiously comes over and takes her place between me and the bag .

Alyssa , leave me alone , I say calmly .

She remains in the same position .

She shakes her head , No.

My jaw clenches with her refusal .

Now .

Standing her ground , she crosses her arms over her chest , No ! I am not going anywhere until you stop and let me clean you up .

1 close my eyes and take a few deep breaths , am not in the mood for your disobedience .

She is extremely stubborn , and it pisses me off .

1/3 Chapter Forty Four Will they ever stop ? At this moment , Wyatt , I ani hot your submissive , I am genuinely led , and I am not leaving .

I dont care what you do or say .

I am fine .

Go back to bed .

You are up soon for work .

What do I need to say or do to get her to go away ? With a shake of her head , she moves closer to me .

She caresses my face as her eyes soften .

My next action comes as a surprise .

I close my eyes and huve into her touch .

Wyatt , let me clean and bandage your hands , please .

You must be in pain .

She whispers .

I dont feel it .

She pulls her hand away .

Have you had another nightmare ? I open my eyes , Yes .

Working out helps .

.

I told you to wake me up .

I didnt want to .

You were sleeping peacefully .

I reply .

It wouldnt have made a difference .

First aid kit ? Yes , theres one in that cabinet .

She tells me to take a seat .

I do as I am told .

She strolls over to get the kit and comes to kneel before me .

She unwinds the bandages covering my hands .

My knuckles are bleeding , swollen , and beginning to develop bruises .

Alyssa sighs , Please tell me you dont do this to yourself often ? Sometimes , but not often .

It is unintentional .

I lose control and it happens .

It is probably considered as self harm .

Alyssa cleans me up and wraps them in clean bandages .

She rubs my knuckles .

Do you want to talk about it ? she asks gently .

No , I donL I am still not ready to open up about my nightmares .

It isnt information she needs .

I have disappointed Alyssa with my response .

Okay .

You will do this one thing for me , and I wont accept no for an answer .

You will leave the gym and come back upstairs .

Ill make tea and a snack for us , and we can stay awake until youre ready to sleep or its time to work .

Okay .

I sm smile .

1 could argue with her , but it wouldnt make a difference .

She wont listen and I dont have the energy to take charge of the situation .

Even I have nights when Im not at my best .

With a bright smile , she leaps to her feet .

She helps me to mine and leads me upstairs .

You take a seat , and I will make the tea .

She disappears to the kitchen .

As I sink into the sofa , I become aware of the stinging in my knuckles .

Ive faced worse pain than this .

Alyssas caring nature isnt something I am used to .

I didnt treit my previous subs the same way I treat her or allow them to get close enough to provide comfort or take care of me outside of our dynamic .

Im unsure of my thoughts on the matter .

It is nice to have someone who cares , I guess .

As long as she doesnt get too attached or makes a habit of it.

Our thing will be done if that hap