My dominant boss novel alyssa and Wyatt novel

It is there or tears .

I dont want to try when the clock strikes midnight .

It would be a new day , and I am sure it cant be any worse than today .

Chapter Comments POST COMMENT NOW My Dominant Bass Chapter One Hundred and Twenty Six I Could Have Handled It Better 1 I shouldnt have left like I did .

I should have stayed .

No , what I should have done was not make the damn suggestion in the first place .

I need to learn to keep my damn mouth shut .

| dont take rejection well .

I cant help but question our relationship .

Are we not on the same page ? I honestly believed we were .

No , we havent been together long , but everything about us seems right , so what should it matter ? Unless that is only me who believes that She is pissed at me by the sound of the voicemail the left me .

I am the one who has the right to be mad .

She must have known how hard that was for me .

Never in my life have I asked a woman to move in with me A part of me wanted to reach out , but I decided not to .

Instead , I chose to sit in the dark and drink .

It isnt the best way to deal with it .

I am not only annoyed but embarrassed , too .

I ain not ready to face her .

I do my second double scotch and take third .

Why did the say no ? Would he have reacted differently if I told her I loved her ? Could that be why she didnt want to ? Or maybe my first thought was correct , and we arent on the same page .

I groan in frustration .

What does Alyssa need and want from me ? I am nowhere near ready to share those three words , I dont know when I will be .

I have never and I love you to anyone and meant it .

Have I used them to get what I want ? Yes , it is something I am not proud of.

I would never do that with Alyssa , I dont know what my next move should be I finish my drink and reach for my cell .

I open a new text to Alyssa , staring at the black screen .

How do I even start it ? I stare at it for a while and give up .

I toss it aside .

I can deal with it at work tomorrow if she shows up .

I wont get into it with her at the office , but we can talk .

I dont want everyone to know our business .

It has nothing to do with them .

may call my mother in the morning to meet for breakfast and get some advice .

She will lecture me because of how I handled the situation .

I reach for another such but change my mind .

Water and sleep are the better idea .

It is getting late .

If I get some sleep , anyway .

There is a good chance wont since Alyssa isnt her with mẹ , I pull any ass from the sofa , grabbing a bottle of water before I head upstairs to my bedroom .

I hate it when Alyssa isnt here .

My house feels big and empty without her .

Her moving in ne would solve that I crawl into bed , glancing over at the other side and sigh .

She should be here .

She would have been if I handled things differently .

un my back , looking up at the ceiling .

It is going to be a long night .

I will get annoyed easily and end up getting out of bed .

The temptation to go to Alyssas place will be strong , but I wont .

She is mad , and I am trying to adjust to the rejection .

I wouldnt want us to end up arguing .

I dont want that I am sure she doesnt either Why the fuck did I leave ? She tried to tell me the reason , but I didnt give her a chance to explain .

She probably feels like I dismissed her feelings and emotions .

She deserves me to be the type of man who doesnt do that .

I toss and turn , trying to get comfortable , but fail .

I give up ! I climb out of bed .

A session in my gym may help calm me down and tire me out .

I would go for a run , but I wont because I have been drinking .

Working out at home sert like the safer option .

I wont use some of the equipment while under the influence .

I change into my workout clothes .

A couple of hours will hopefully tire me out .

I will keep going until exhaust myself .

I say to exhaust myself , but I sometimes veesik mpself as punishment .

It replaced my drug use a few years ago .