THE DAY I QUIT HIM NOVEL

chasing-light-finding-peace-by-rohan-verma 198 Summary In Chapter 198 of "Chasing Light, Finding Peace" by Rohan Verma, Mars confronts the devastating consequences of his actions, feeling a heavy weight of guilt and regret. He reflects on how his choices have led to the pain of others, particularly Lydia, whose life has been irrevocably altered due to his infidelity. As he grapples with his emotions, he realizes that he is solely responsible for the chaos he has caused, leading to his estrangement from his wife, Autumn.

The shame he feels is compounded by the disappointment of his parents, who had raised him with strong values but now see him as a selfish individual. Mars's parents, Hugo and Myers, express their frustration and anger towards him, emphasizing that it is too late for him to seek forgiveness or sympathy. Autumn's decision to divorce him is a painful reality that he struggles to accept, as he cannot comprehend how she can move on so easily after everything they shared.

This lack of understanding fuels his bitterness and resentment, causing him to lash out at his younger brother, Luke, who innocently offers support. Mars's outburst reveals his internal turmoil and deep-seated feelings of neglect and betrayal from his family. As his family leaves him alone in the silence, Mars is confronted by his reflection and the tears that begin to fall, signaling a moment of vulnerability and realization. He comes to understand that Autumn was not just a partner but an integral part of his identity, and his reckless behavior has cost him dearly.

The weight of his mistakes crashes down on him, leading to a moment of clarity where he acknowledges his deep love for Autumn, despite his previous denials. In a moment of desperation, he pleads for her return, expressing a willingness to change and abandon his past mistakes. His laughter, tinged with madness, underscores the depth of his despair as he grapples with the reality that he has lost everything he once held dear. The chapter concludes with Mars's emotional plea, leaving readers to ponder the complexities of love, regret, and the pursuit of redemption.

Continue Regular Chapter Reading Below **TITLE: Chasing Light, Finding Peace by Rohan Verma** 198 *Yeah. That was all me.* *Everything he'd done, he'd done himself.* *No one had ever forced him.* A heavy weight settled in my chest as I grappled with the reality of my situation. Deep inside, I felt a sharp pang of regret-so why did I let the first words that escaped my lips turn into a pointed accusation?

*I'm the last person here with any right to blame someone else, aren't I?* If Mars hadn't been sneaking around with Lydia behind Autumn's back, he wouldn't be standing there, paralyzed by fear and guilt. He wouldn't have faced the crippling performance issues that had left him a shell of his former self. And without those issues, he wouldn't have felt the need to provoke Lydia, trying to regain some semblance of power. Lydia wouldn't have been hurt. If Lydia hadn't been hurt, she wouldn't have ended up with her face marred, a permanent reminder of the chaos that had ensued.

Now, Lydia was like a specter haunting him, a vengeful presence that wouldn't let him rest. "I know I was wrong..." Mars muttered to himself, his voice barely above a whisper, "I really know I was wrong..." Hugo and Myers, standing a few feet away, felt no compassion for their son. Their hearts were hardened, and compassion had its limits. If only Mars had owned up to his mistakes, taken responsibility the moment they surfaced, they would have rallied around him, ready to help him rebuild his life.

1/6 Chapter 198 But after witnessing his pathetic attempts to shift the blame, how could they possibly trust him again? Shame washed over them like a tidal wave. A nagging confusion gnawed at their insides. They had raised him with strong principles, dedicated countless hours to his upbringing. How could their eldest son have devolved into such a selfish, morally bankrupt individual? "It's far too late to realize you were wrong now." Myers sighed heavily, her disappointment palpable. "Autumn has already divorced you.

The fact that she kept it all under wraps so perfectly implies she was ready to leave you long before this. She's moving on with her life. Don't you dare bother her. Focus on how you plan to rectify the mistakes you've made." Mars's expression was vacant, as if the very essence of who he was had been drained from him. "She's starting a new life...?" *How can she just start anew...? After everything we shared... I only strayed a little in our marriage. How could she just discard it all, abandon me, and choose someone else so easily?* Myers's jaw clenched tightly.

Fighting the urge to slap him again, she hissed through gritted teeth, "Why shouldn't she? Try putting yourself in her shoes for just one second! Could you really forgive your partner if you were the one enduring all this?" "Mars, your father and I never raised you to be this selfish! I genuinely think you're a lost cause!" Mars trembled, a storm of emotions swirling within him. He wanted to argue, to defend himself, but the words wouldn't come.

Not wanting to waste another moment on their obstinate son, Hugo and Myers took their younger son's hand, deciding it was best to get something to eat first. "Come on, Luke. Mom and Dad will take you out for a bite." Luke was indeed fragile, his face perpetually pale and devoid of life. He looked up at Mars with wide, dark eyes, hesitating before asking, "Isn't Mars coming?" Hugo scoffed. "Your brother did something wrong. He needs to stay here and reflect on his actions." Luke paused, contemplating for a moment, then nodded. "Mars, can I bring you something to eat?

Is there anything you want?" Mars met the innocent gaze of his younger brother, who was young enough to be his son, and a fresh wave of bitterness surged through him, threatening to drown him. "Get lost! I don't need your pity!" He punctuated his words with a hard shove, sending a shockwave through the room. Hugo and Myers instinctively lunged forward to shield Luke. "Mars!" Myers shouted, her voice laced with fury.

"I thought you were just confused, but now I see you're rotten to the core!" "How could you be so cruel to your own brother?!" Mars erupted into a manic laugh, the sound echoing with bitterness. "Tch! Some 'brother.' He's just the result of you two not being able to control yourselves!" "You had me, but you had to have another one. You really think I don't see what you were planning?" "His sickness and weakness-that's your karma!" Mars was still nursing a grudge from all the years he felt neglected, left at school without a second thought while his parents pursued their own lives.

Combined with their refusal to help him reach out to Autumn just moments ago, a storm of old resentments and new frustrations surged through him. All he wanted was to strike at them where it would hurt the most. *If my life is going to be hell, I'll drag everyone else down with me!* "You-!" Hugo grabbed Myers, who looked as though she might faint from rage. He shot Mars a venomous glare, throwing one last parting shot over his shoulder. "You're a lost cause. You made this mess; you can clean it up yourself." Then, he guided his wife and son away, exiting quickly.

The room fell into an eerie silence. The only sound that filled the air was Mars's ragged breathing, echoing in the void left by his family's departure. In that moment, he was gripped by a profound fear of the quiet. It felt as though the entire world had turned its back on him. **Hic... sob...** A sudden sound of crying startled Mars. He turned, his eyes locking onto his own reflection in a nearby mirror. He stared, dumbfounded, at the man staring back at him-eyes swollen and red, face streaked with tears. *Was that... me, crying?* Mars's eyes widened in disbelief.

As he wiped his face, he realized his palm came away damp. It really was him... *But why am I crying?* Confusion washed over him, but the tears continued to fall, harder and faster. Moments later, a choked sob escaped his throat, sounding like the anguished wail of a wild animal-hideous and raw. "Autumn..." He whispered her name, the sound escaping before he could think. In that instant, clarity struck him like a lightning bolt. At some unknown point in time, Autumn had woven herself into the very fabric of his being, into his blood and bones.

He'd always claimed he didn't like her, but the truth was, she had been buried deep within his heart all along. He had thought their marriage was a chain binding her to him, that she would forgive him no matter how far he strayed. That belief had emboldened him to seek out Lydia, and even Hannah, with reckless abandon. In fact, there had been moments during business trips early in their marriage when temptation loomed large. Yet, he had never dared to cross the line, managing to maintain at least a fragile physical fidelity.

Until Lydia entered the picture and shattered every boundary he had set. A throbbing pain pulsed in his head. "Autumn," he called out, instinctively wanting her to come and soothe his temples. But the silence that lingered was a cruel reminder of his new reality. Autumn had divorced him. And due to his monumental mistakes, she was now pregnant with Owen Bennett's child. She had transformed from a nobody into a somebody, on the verge of becoming the most envied woman in the world, bar none. Heh. Hahahaha. Mars covered his eyes and began to laugh like a madman. His parents were right.

This was all his doing. What right did he have to blame Autumn? *But why... why does my heart ache so much...?* "Autumn... I know I was wrong... Can we please go back to how things were? I swear I'll never have anything to do with Lydia again. I only want you... I'm begging you, please come back to me..." Conclusion In the aftermath of Mars's emotional unraveling, a profound sense of solitude enveloped him, starkly contrasting the chaos he had created. The laughter that once masked his pain now echoed hollowly in the empty room, a bitter reminder of the choices that had led him here.

As he faced the reflection of his broken self, tears streamed down his face, revealing the depth of his regret and the weight of his actions. The realization that Autumn had become an integral part of his very existence struck him like a thunderclap, leaving him grappling with the enormity of his loss. He no longer saw her as a mere partner but as the anchor he had carelessly severed. In that moment of clarity, the walls he had built around his heart began to crumble, exposing the raw vulnerability he had long hidden away. Yet, amidst the storm of sorrow, a flicker of hope emerged.

Mars understood that redemption was not a matter of mere words but of genuine transformation. The path to reclaiming Autumn, to healing the wounds he had inflicted, would not be easy, but it was a journey he was now willing to embark upon. As he whispered her name, a silent vow formed in his heart: to confront his demons, to seek forgiveness not just from her but from himself, and to strive for a life that honored the love they once shared.

The weight of his remorse will push him to seek redemption, igniting a desperate quest to reclaim what he has lost. But will he have the courage to face the truth about himself and the damage he has caused, or will he remain trapped in his own spiral of self-pity and blame? As Mars's internal struggle intensifies, the narrative will also explore the shifting dynamics between him and Autumn. With Autumn moving on and building a new life without him, the tension will rise as Mars begins to realize the depth of his love for her and the stark reality of her absence.

His cries for reconciliation will resonate through the chapter, setting the stage for a pivotal confrontation that could either lead to his redemption or further alienation. Readers will be left on the edge of their seats, wondering if Mars can muster the strength to reach out for forgiveness or if he will succumb to the darkness that threatens to engulf him entirely. Cedella Cedella is a passionate storyteller known for her bold romantic and spicy novels that keep readers hooked from the very first chapter.

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