Im sorry if i put you and Lorde in this situation , Hestia .
} } Chapter 28 % I lowered the book I had been holding , trying to calm my mind .
I was sitting in the garden , early in the morning .
I liked the fresh air and the feeling of achieving something after it seemed like it would slip away .
I know what I did was wrong .
I ignored you while I married you , he added .
I didnt speak .
I watched him sit down in front of me , his eyes glimmering with guilt , though his expression remained calm in my sight .
Chesca , I feel guilty that she died trying to save my child from another woman .
From you .
} I lowered my head , unable to hide the pain that hearing those words caused .
We were married now , but back then , when we did what we did , it felt like a sin against everyone .
And yet , when I married you , I felt guilty for hiding the truth about Lorde .
I was guilty because , every day , you showed me that you lost your memories because I pushed you too hard when you woke up .
All because of guilt .
Everything was my fault , he said quietly .
And maybe because I admitted to myself how flawed I was , I was afraid to show that to you , or to our son .
And it ruined our marriage , I added softly .
It ruined you , Hes .
If anyone was ruined here , its you .
I ruined you .

Our son did too , and yet … when he was broken , when I was being pulled into the ruins , you came back .
Still shattered , still hurt , but you came back because you never wanted us to be broken forever .
I felt my chest release almost all the pain I had been holding in for so long .
The pain I had suffered in silence , the pain I had hidden for years .
You know I did love this family , Lucian .
I tried my best to be perfect , and it wasnt hard for me because … I felt like this was my purpose .
To be your wife , to be Lordes mother .
I smiled at that .
I had wanted to be the perfect mother and wife for them .
Is it … He stopped met his gaze , sensing the hesitation in his voice .
Is it what , Lucian ? I asked .
He looked away , and I could see his expression shift again , like he was hiding something .
Id like you to be honest , bare , with a naked soul and naked thoughts , showing me who you really are .
For a month , youve been like that , and its like … Ive gotten to know you more , I said .
Why are you hiding your truth again ? > Im afraid of your answer .
Which you havent received yet , I added .
Is it still your purpose now ? His voice was low , filled with shame .
} I laughed softly at that .
To be a perfect mother and wife to you ? I reached for the divorce papers on my lap and handed them to him .
No.
Its not .

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@ His expression softened .
He picked them up slowly , clearly afraid of seeing what was on the paper .
He had thrown away the first one I sent .
This was my final copy .
He read through it , and to my surprise , he grabbed a pen and signed it , his hand heavy with the weight of the action .
Im sorry again , Hestia .
For everything .
For being the worst husband to you , he murmured , his voice pained , as he handed me the paper .
And Im sorry f for making you feel unloved .
I did … I did love you .
I … I just find it hard to show it .
} I smiled as I took it and looked at his signature and name .
On the other side , it was still blank .
Youre just scared maybe because you dont know how to love properly , Lucian .
Someone must teach you that , you know .
} I chuckled and I tore the paper in front of him .
What … he mumbled , shocked .
Hestia … } I smiled at him again .
To be a perfect mother and wife is no longer my purpose , Lucian .
Maybe the reason you didnt try harder before was because you saw me as perfect .
You saw me as whole .

Now , Im incomplete .
I need a piece of you , and a piece of Lorde , to make myself whole again .
} He stood up quickly and walked toward me .
Hestia … does that mean … I chuckled softly , seeing how hard it was for him to say the words , as though he was afraid he might be wrong .
I nodded slowly .
Lets try again , Lucian .
For Lorde , and for us .
@ I saw a tear fall down his cheek .
He looked different now clean , handsome , less stressed but there he was , crying .
I chuckled , but before I could say anything else , he pulled me into a hug .
Ill give you all the pieces this time , Hestia .
All the pieces of my heart and soul .
I promise .
}] I know .
I can feel it , Lucian .
Ive thought about this decision for a month through the chaos , weve stayed strong because were a complete family .
It hasnt been easy , but weve made it because were whole .
As my father always says , a united family is unbreakable .
Didnt I dream of this ? I think fate is giving me another chance , and more than fearing a risk with Lucian , I fear wasting this chance with him and Lorde .
With our family .
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